got to keep my mouth shut....fear...haunting; linear...confusion...something fleshy swimming right under the carpeting...buckets of paint...decapitated porcelain dolls...nightmares fill my bed and my sheets...I sleep on the love seat...cloths piled high...most don't fit...stale stench of litter box and cigarette smoke...radiant computer screen...shadows of objects...dancing...wind blown water color...flaking...splash effect...stab the walls...pen marks...markers don't work...pencils die...cat sleeps under coffee table... making valentines...sweet dreams...color savers...guaranteed fresh...side step the CD cases...hammers...tape...and glue...side pocket eye...peripheral…prophecy gaze…god sleeps with her…
time…ten…thirty…seven…coughing…singing…drinking…whiskey…shot glass…spectacle…sun glasses…hair in my way…left here…right from the start…some dark cloud rests on my shoulders…thought is relaxed…ticking…time…ten…forty…sigh…sidestep the piles upon piles…keep quiet…something’s not right…not in place…don’t know…cautious…paranoid…strike the flint...burst...ignition...satisfaction...smoke clears the fog...but something hids in the mist...horror...throat clenching...nail biting...quaking sensation...need an escape...life jacket...drugs...drink...
but none exist...not here...under the awning above the fourth floor number three window...cold...brisk...ghosts...whispers...something to me...help me....help me...help me...help me...HELP ME!!!